Trans women know misogyny

Y’know why trans women are often pissed off and angry? Because we’ve EXPERIENCED how people who are seen as male are treated. On a daily basis, it is different. Men are supported and affirmed and rewarded in ways cis women can’t imagine.

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Facial Reconstruction Surgery

I had facial reconstruction surgery last week. The surgeons contoured my forehead, chin, and jaw. The swelling is reducing, and the soreness is receding. I can touch my face now, and it feels—wonderful.

I scratched an itch on my chin this afternoon, and I didn’t notice until the second or third time I reached up to scratch my chin. That corner was gone. The sharp, masculine edge that defined my jawline is no longer there.

I was reminded of this scene from a Twine game by Kevin McGowan:

You reach out, but jump to realise that your arm is shorter than expected.

No. That’s not the problem. Your arm is now exactly as long as you expect it to be – as you always expected it to be. Your confusion arises from no longer having to compensate for reality’s shortcomings.
Pure Again

That’s exactly how my face feels now. My face feels exactly as I expect it to. The jarring contradiction between self-image and reality–the root of dysphoria–no longer interferes with simple actions like scratching my chin or rubbing my forehead.

Methods of Self-Care

When I have to go into a situation that I expect will cause anxiety, I prepare a self-care kit that I keep with me in my purse. I learned this from some people who struggle with BPD. Their suggestion was to keep at least one item on hand that stimulates each of the 5 senses:

Taste.
Find something tasty—chocolate, crackers, hard candy, tea?
Smell.
Find something that smells good to you (preferably a mild scent that won’t disturb others). I keep a small bottle of diluted rose or lily oil, and I rub it on the span between my thumb and pointer finger. When I hit a peak of stress or anxiety, I look down and rest my nose on my pointer finger with a relaxed, closed hand, as though I’m pensive. The scent is right next to my nose, and it’s soothing, but the position doesn’t seem unnatural to others around me.
Sight.
Keep a picture (physical or digital) of something you like to look at. Pets, animals, nature, your favorite places, your favorite people. Find something that puts you in a happy place!
Sound.
Keep some headphones with you, and some music you like, or a recording of a speech you like, or some words from someone you care about. I have two playlists of tracks: one for relaxing, and one for feeling upbeat and happy.
Touch.
Find some small token of something that you care about, something you like, something that makes you feel good. I used to carry a wish-stone (flat stone with an indentation for rubbing). Fidget devices can work. My rings help ground me, and they’re connected to good, personal events in my life. Something you like to touch can also work, even a piece of fabric. Sometimes, I’ll even rub something on my lips—the extra tactile contact is a big boost, and this can be very subtle if you hold it between your thumb and forefinger, and adopt the aforementioned “pensive” position.

Dating And “Disclosure”

Genderbitch: An Archive

Crossposted to The Spectrum Cafe.

There’s a funny thing in the United States (and in a few other places too). It’s called a right to privacy. It isn’t perfect. After all, any right will have some limitations to account for clashes of rights. But for the most part, we all have a right to not disclose medical history, personal info or anything that would not threaten the life or health of someone to people we meet and know. Even in ethics, privacy is considered a major necessity and was the original basis behind abortion option rights (before bodily domain became a major player through McFall v Shimp), the basis behind many of the laws regulating police activity and governmental monitoring and a huge number of laws related to people’s information, companies and the internet. Even now, ethics forbids sharing information about people that is considered private (or coercing them…

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Family

“So how did your family and friends react? Are they supportive?”

It’s not that I don’t understand why others want to ask questions like this, but that doesn’t make it less frustrating to experience, and it doesn’t make it a sensitive question to ask someone who isn’t a close friend.

Recently, I’ve been on a few dates with a queer woman of color. I don’t ask about her family. Full stop.

She’ll tell me anything that’s relevant when she’s comfortable telling me. And when it’s relevant. I don’t need to know about family, chosen or otherwise. I need to know what’s important to her. How do I find out? By asking.

Resources for Trans People

I updated the templates I created to help trans people come out to family, friends, or coworkers, and to help trans people write claims, complaints, appeals, or grievances to their health insurers, health care providers, or others intermediaries between trans people and medical care. Please use, modify, and share freely. If you’d like, you may attribute this website ( https://transilhouette.wordpress.com ) or my pseudonym, Sarah Frank.

As always, if you have any suggestions or recommendations, please let me know!

Barriers to Trans Medical Care

I want cis people to understand some of the struggles and frustrations that trans people face with medical care.

Even in the states where trans exclusions are illegal, many trans people don’t realize that insurance “should” cover most of their medical needs in transition—largely because health plan contracts still contain explicit, illegal transgender exclusions. Health plans reply to concerns about these exclusions with “well, we just haven’t rewritten the contract”…18 months later!?

There’s zero net cost (i.e., reduced costs are comparable to expenses), and there’s significant evidence that appropriate medical treatment reduces attempted suicide rates from over 41% to under 2% (more than 95% reduction in attempted suicide!). Administrative arguments from health plans against covering requested treatments boil down to “but trans people are gross and icky” and “We’re Really Trying To Help“. The California state agency licensed with protecting our rights (DMHC: Department of Managed Health Care) spent nine years since their 2005 Insurance Gender Nondiscrimination Act knowingly contracted with a transphobic organization to provide “objective” medical reviews of insurance claims—all of which could have been resolved by enforcing the one and only Standard of Care (WPATH), but they continue to say “well, trans exclusions are illegal, but we’re Really Just Not Sure which procedures should be covered” (see also: “hey, do you remember that Standard of Care discussing applicable treatments?”).

It’s unbelievably, nauseatingly frustrating that these problems could be fixed on any one of six different levels of hierarchy devoted to “objectively” evaluating medical needs, and they spend more time and money dodging or pointing fingers than providing medical care…

Yes: cis people also struggle with insurance providers to get their medical needs covered. That doesn’t make it comparable. Some of the major differences:

  • several decades of worldwide professional medical standards of care have established successful treatment plans
  • trans medical care has a fair amount of research indicating that these treatments increase QoL and reduce suicide rates in spite of abysmal funding
  • said research is held to far stricter standards than are typically expected of medical procedures (again in spite of abysmal funding)
  • trans people face significant financial barriers to accessing medical care (e.g., buying insurance, losing jobs)
  • trans people face significant social and psychological barriers to accessing medical care (e.g., untrained and disrespectful medical staff, ID mismatches, harassment from medical staff, and internal struggles with avoiding dysphoria triggers in medical offices)

I spent eighteen months trying to get hair removal and facial surgery covered, and now that I’m on the verge of success, I’m losing coverage and I have to change plans. I might have to start over again. Not from scratch, but it’ll still be probably several more months before I can get back to this point. Who has the time, energy, education, intelligence, and persistence to go through all of this!? The system is designed to frustrate people into paying for services out of pocket. For unemployed trans people, that’s a recipe for suicide.